Psalm 123 (NASB)
To You I lift up my eyes,
O You who are enthroned in the heavens!
2 Behold, as the eyes of servants look to the hand of their master,
As the eyes of a maid to the hand of her mistress,
So our eyes look to the Lord our God,
Until He is gracious to us.
3 Be gracious to us, O Lord, be gracious to us,
For we are greatly filled with contempt.
4 Our soul is greatly filled
With the scoffing of those who are at ease,
And with the contempt of the proud.
This past week I acted like a straight up child – I wanted it my way, I wanted what I thought was best for me, and I demanded it because I somehow thought I deserved it. This did not result in me getting what I was whining for, but rather, led me into sin, frustration, depression, and stress.
This morning I flipped my bible open to Psalm 123 and it broke me – I am not in a position to demand anything from God, I am an undeserving servant, saved only by grace and love – not by works, lest I should ever dare boast. I am a humble servant of the almighty, all powerful, all knowing creator of the universe – the same God that spoke the world into existence and breathed life into the first man and woman – and sent his only Son to suffer and die for a world that had turned their back on Him. I was crying out to God to take away the sin and pain, while at the same time, holding a deep grudge toward him for not giving me what I wanted – I was so selfish and prideful.
Our Father in heaven, holy is Your name. Let your kingdom and will come to earth as it is in heaven. Give us the bread we need for today, and forgive our debts, as we forgive our debtors. Don’t lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.